Thankful

Something happened that made me really really upset. It was one of those moments where I was hurt, sad and REALLY angry all at the same time. There was no where to put it. So I hopped onto the old blog and started typing. I basically wrote what I wanted to say. A few drafts later I even chopped it down enough to make it post-able. (My best writing does not come from a place of anger.) Then, I didn't post it. I saved it. It is still there, sitting in my drafts, awaiting the publish button. After I saved it I went back and decided to read some of my old posts. Somehow the combination of writing out my feelings and reading back on some old things, made everything better. I have chosen a different route. 

Thankful.

I am thankful for all of the amazing people in my life. The people who are honest. The people who don't cause me pain and are there for me no matter what. I am thankful for friends, family, James, my kids. I am so thankful for the people who love me for me and who show up even when it totally sucks to do it. I am incredibly lucky. I am insanely thankful. 

Every moment matters

      My focus right now is just on enjoying the little things in life. There are moments every single day that I miss that could change my mood or perception of any given situation. There are also a lot of things in all of our lives that we tend to take for granted every day. Here are a few of my 2015 favorite things so far...

My Disney Thomas Kinkade calender that I got for Christmas from a friend. It's one of the first things I see in the morning, I walk by it constantly and I am just head over heels with it. I love the detail and the beauty and color and just the overall magic he brings out of something that was already magical.

This everyday moments book (from the same friend as the calendar posted above) has been wonderful. It's a way to look back on each and every day and find the positives in all of it. Even if it felt like a bad day, or an unproductive day, there is some good moment somewhere to be remembered.

I love her. She loves who she is. She knows who she is. She is amazing and also HILARIOUS. I agree with this quote whole heartedly. I have always been the type of person who doesn't care much for what other people think of me. Of course the opinions of my friends and family matter to me but as long as I know what I am doing and I love myself... that is all that really matters.

Ok, so I got a tablet for Christmas. It's a Windows tablet and it has this AMAZING thing called One Note. Ok, maybe I'm living in the ice age here but I had no idea this existed. I AM IN LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!! I can make to do lists on it or on the app for one note on my phone and it all syncs and I can check things off as I go. I cannot stop. I am definitely a crazy list person but I hate carrying notebooks or losing scraps of paper I write things down on. I also hate not being able to check things off of a list. In the past if I made a list on my phone I would delete each task when it was done but then I can't go back and look at all that I have accomplished. This lets me make a list, check things off and keep it. I have never been more excited!

Of course, my children. A day will never go by when I do not appreciate every single moment with them. Yes, they can be difficult. Yes, sometimes I do need to get away or take a breather. But no matter what, I love every thing that they do and all the crazy things that they say. Sure, Sophia may draw all over EVERYTHING with whatever writing utensil she somehow gets a hold of no matter how high up I put them. Yet, these are moments that I wouldn't trade for a second. Every moment with them matters. Every second with them makes me a better person. There are no two people I love more in this world than these little goons. 

     These are a few of the things that have made the start of my 2015 better. I can only imagine how much better this year is going to get! Love, love, love! 

Here's to you 2015

     2015 you bring a promise with you. A promise of new. A promise of better. A promise of life. Life isn't perfect. Life is messy. So messy. And crazy. So crazy. Yet your promise renews a fire in us to become better people. The people that we want to be. So I could make 100 resolutions of which I would probably break at least 75. So instead, this year, this is what I resolve.

  

   Everyday is a new start. Everyday is a new experience. Every day is a new time to do what is right and good. Everyday is a new moment to capture so that you can make the most of this life. This is what I resolve. This is what I choose. I choose to wake up everyday with fresh eyes and a happy heart and open myself up to the possibility of absolutely anything and everything. 

    2014 was full of so much. It was full of pain, sadness, loss and heart break. It was full of traveling, adventuring, new friends, old friends and excitement. 2014 was full of life. There is no other way to explain it. I want 2015 to be full of many of the same things but I want to embrace and enjoy every last second of it. I want to soak it all in. I want to remember every moment and record it into my memory to stay forever. I miss so much by letting life rush right by me and that is what I want to change.

    So 2015, you may be bringing me many new promises but most of all you are full of hope and I hope to be a better me... Here's to you and all of your new promises and resolutions! Happy New Year! Welcome 2015!